Scarred Love - Chapter 64

Rudra stood in front of her with his shirt half open. Basically, he was still wearing his dinner clothes and it seemed that he had combed his hair with his hands in frustration multiple times as it looked ruffled in odd places.

But Ishani was stuck at his muscled torso as the good view of it left her utterly breathless but still, she composed herself and looked at him questioningly.

Suddenly he pushed her into the room and pinned her against the wall.

Ishani looked into his eyes and found nothing but passionate lust; it excited her but at the same time it also scared her a little.

"Rudra!"

"Dammit!" he cursed and within seconds his mouth landed on hers.

He ravished her mouth wildly and she couldn't do anything but give in. Just as he bit her lower lip, she moaned hard, wrapping her arms around him.

She heard him groan and felt him pressing himself more into her.

"I want you, dammit! I am not able to control this," he whispered huskily placing small kisses on her lips making her moan.

Unable to take it, she gripped his hair and connected her lips with his, licking them hard.

He growled hard and gave in to her plundering mouth and tongue as they left his mouth and started to suck and lick his throat.

"Ishani, baby you are making crazy. Baby, please....urgh....stop."

Clutching her face, he pulled it up.

"I don't want to do anything that I'll regret."

Ishani froze the moment she heard him. So he regrets touching her. Oh boy! So she is right, he is regretting it.

She squirmed hard and tried to move away but Rudra tightened his arms around her.

"You can leave whenever you want," she said looking away.

"Leave? Who said anything about leaving?"

"Please Rudra."

"Hey, don't you dare think anything wrong. What I meant was that I can't just do something that will hurt you. I want you, Ishani. Believe me, I am going crazy here thinking about kissing, licking and touching you. I am going fucking crazy thinking about being inside you. But you're not just some woman. You are the woman for me; the one and only. I want it to be special when we do it."

"Do it? You mean when we fuck?"

"No, Ishani Raijdas. I mean make love. I can never fuck you. I'll make love to you as a man should make love to his woman."

Her lips stretched into a smile and she buried her face in his chest.

Kissing her forehead gently, he cupped her face and said, "I should be going now before I lose it completely. Good night, baby."

Saying this, he let her go and stepped out of her room. She kept on looking at him and suddenly called out to him just as he was about to open his bedroom door.

As he turned, she sprinted to him and engulfed him in her arms and tightened her grip on him.

"I love you. Please don't ever leave me," she said almost pleading.

"Never baby, I can never leave you. I'll never do anything that will hurt you."

With a smile, she let him go and went to her room.

Just as his bedroom door closed behind him, Rudra smiled wickedly.

Ishani Raijdas, you are stuck irrevocably in this. You can't escape.

And, I'll fucking ruin you beyond repair when I am done with you.

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Ishani woke up as a rocking movement displaced her head from its perch. As her eyes adjusted to the brightness around her, she realised that she had actually slept most of the ride to Bandhavgarh. She shifted and felt an arm tightening around her body pulling her into place.

As she felt Rudra’s fingers digging into her arm, she glanced at him and saw his eyes closed but she knew he wasn’t sleeping. There was something different about him. He seemed a little tense. His forehead was bunched hard and his right palm was clenched in a fist so hard that his knuckles had gone all white.

“Rudra, is everything okay?” she asked trying to move away from him but he didn’t allow.

He nodded but still his clenched jaw and twitching nerve in the temple betrayed whatever he was feeling.

“Rudra, please tell me. Is it the anxiety attacks?”

Rudra could do nothing but nod as the turmoil inside his mind was increasing with every passing minute. And, he knew if he did not take the shot now then it will be too late.

Alarm rose inside Ishani just as she felt his arm clutching her shoulder harder than usual. It started to hurt terribly as his fingers dug further into her skin.

“Where are your medicines?”

“Bag,” he replied with effort as his pulse started to increase.

“Stop the car!” she instructed and jumped out the moment it halted.

Ram jumped out of the security car the moment he saw her coming around the boot. He had just reached in the morning from Jaipur. With everything that was going on, it was not feasible to let them go without security.

“What is it?”

“He needs his medicine. Take his bag out quick,” she said as the driver opened the boot.

Ram rushed towards the side where Rudra was sitting and looked at him.

“Hukum!” he called out tapping on the window but did not get any answer from Rudra.

It took only seconds for Ram to understand what was happening. He quickly brushed off Ishani who was trying to open bags to get the medicine.

“What are you doing?” she asked looking at him pulling out a black bag and extracting something sort of pre-filled syringe from a box. Her eyes widened as she looked into the box and found a whole stack of syringes.

She ran behind Ram and got inside the car as he opened the other side door.

Rudra’s eyes tightly shut, however, his erratic breathing and frequent shivers showed that he was trying to control the attack but failing miserably.

“Gudiya di, take off his coat, quick,” Ram instructed her and she instantly grabbed Rudra’s coat and dragged it off his body.

But suddenly his body shook violently and he grabbed her hand and pulled her to him.

And then, his eyes opened.

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